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cant wake up for work. was expected. so went to do facial den Anna was like askin me to tutor her son cos he's as rebellious as me. so mayb i can guide him in a diff way. actuali tink it's not a bad idea cos i can help someone tt's walkin e same path as i did b4. furthermore, she's offerin to do facial for me free in return. :)sAt
went to work. was damn tire from e nite b4. but on e way to work, i was havin a serious tot bout my life. how was i goin to live it. i jus wanna treat yesterdae like a dream, 1 tt i longed for. i was like cinderalla. at least i was. at least i had him for a moment. wasnt too much to ask for rite? was tinkin too much. was keepin myself busy to not tink. was tryin to focus on my work. non stop i tried to groom e dogs. n i had a bad stomach for e whole dae. my body's crap now. cant sleep, cant eat, drink n smoke. i need a doc! den he came. atmosphere was weird. i duno how to face him. duno wat to sae. sld i ignore or sld i act normal. i chose e 2nd 1 cos i dun wan to ruin some things. each time we cross eyes, i cant reali describe e feelin. somehow, things werent e same. i was afraid, i was keepin my distance. i was prayin we cld knock off asap. we went to tony roma's to haf dinner. cant eat again. I JUS CANT. i m hungry but i got full jus by abit of food. i wanna leave badly. dun wanna suffer in a way, Fen cld feel my pain. i love her. she knows me so well. went to DXO to meet Varian, Jordan and Kelvin. it was a total disappointment. but i met Jeremy dere. was great catchin up wif him. nothing more, though i tot i might. had a great time updatin each other n playin 5 10. saw Audrey n knew Vanessa dere. aft tt still went to elias for cup noodle n i cant finish it again. -.-!! went home bout 7am.thx for being here when i needed u. u took away some of my pain. i'm sry for bein selfish n honest here. But I am only human. forgive me.
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fucked up mornin. overslept for my first lesson cos i took sleepin pills wif flu medicine last nite. i cldn wake up aft 16 missed calls. OMG!! but fuck care la. got alot of things to do later. went for french manicure at 2pm, make up at 3pm, den hair stylin at 4pm. e hair stylin n manicure were worth it. especially e hair. i feel like a princess. e make up sux at first. she use blue eye shadow can. got her to change it to earth tone. den e eyebrow she draw too long le. so fake. so i went to e ladies to touch up abit. tink i can do even better lo. everyone was like lookin at me lo. in dress and make over. they muz b tinkin wat i doin dere sia. went to take neoprint b4 meetin him. took a cab to hilton. in e cab, he gave me e pendant. reali appreciate n like it alot. was feelin damn cold la. den borrow his blazer den he still tell e uncle worngly to lower e temp. -.-!! was actuali tryin not to smoke when i was dere. but he was reali busy so.. i still did. i understand though. sms n called ppl to entertain me. knew tt he tried to entertain me also. aft some photo takin we went in. he was diff todae. talk more, feel as if we were back to last time. reali enjoyed. mayb it's cos he already knew wat he wanted. good for him. e best couple competition was crap though. haha.. aft tt we had a talk. a good one, i got my answers. thx for givin me such a wonderful nite.tHUr
went to book all my appointments for tml which includes manicure, make up n hair stylin. den rush down to shop cos tony needed an urgent meetin. in e end oni i turn up. i was like wtf. haha.. but good la. he help me gan e pervert shit. den we had a good talk over dinner. reach home had a reali bad flu. but tml needa wake up early for bike lesson so took sleepin pills n flu med tgh.
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went to work den Chris came to meet me. had a great talk wif him at parkway mac bout my prob n us. he was gone for so so long. so updated him quite abit. den he sent me to momo. so paiseh cos i showed him e wrong directions. den we were like goin round n round. met Mabel! long time no c her sia. was eatin my first food, which was a bun, which she soiled by huggin me. IT TOUCHED HER ARMPIT!! she ruined my oni source of food. den still keep on sayin i lost so much weight. -.-!! den her fren was like such a lousy drinker lo. drunk aft 2. OMG. left bout 4. den some crappy shit happened. lucki Varian came to help. thx god. without him, i duno wat wld happen. thx alot n love ya..tUe
went to get my heels. been searchin for it for so so long. singapore no more my size. till i went to novena sq den get a size smaller which i can still fit. but they manage to get my size at amara. so went dere to change size. but i was like lost can. in e stations while changin trains. omg.. den waited for his appearance. upon seein him, my heart beat abit faster. he din talk much, i guessed he was upset bout things tt happen btw them. got e dress den we went to makan cos he was rushin home. i finish my whole meal cos he wasnt talkin at all. felt tt he changed. kinda upset. wonder wat's botherin him but yet dun dare ask much also la. he wanna tell will tell de. he left, gabriel came, den left, tony came, den we went to haf dinner when my mum called. spoil everything.sAt, sUn, mOn
been quarreling wif mum bout Ace. decided to gif him up. gif him a better hm. i cant b selfish. jus hope Louis can take him in n love him more den e way i cld. i'll always remember him as my son.
